update of my crazy life

My life has been crazy with kids in school to me working (almost myself again) to trying to figure out my next move has been VERY difficult since I have to go to the dentist to explain why why I want my kid to take out his braces as I think it's BS to where I told you why but I still need to sit down and here them say why it's good for him but it's affecting his mind..body...but really is MIND!!!#
  I had to do some research that I felt bad after and never realize braces had metal which isn't good for you. Ah just google and you will find what you need but I pray that he gets them taken off and get some other ones that does not contain metal.
  Besides that I have to be super mom and g9 see my kids sing to head over to a parent conference meeting and Friday will be my relax day and not having to wake up early sounds fantastic!!!!

  So far I'm tired and want to take a quick bath as my baby sleep...my big girl reads past 15min. as I told her she can read that long but she is still going. My baby boy organizing the bookshelve bcz he wants to make the books look around the same hight but he wants to so I said  "Go ahead" and my oldest is finish up his HW!!!# Im tired as I went to work and back again tomorrow.

  I better say bye bye as soon I will have to pump soon and the kids clothes should be dry.


 My life...My Journey

A little something

Time seems to never be on anyone time as days and weeks pass. Trying to figure out why we are here that I have concluded things are getting crazy. People don't listen because they are scared of the truth.  Some listen but they are worried about what people think. I'm just forgetful as I try to chase my next break of getting out of my situation.

  Things are changing but I pray I will get through this.

Saturday or Sunday

Things never change but people do. If you get caught up in this world you will miss a lot or even a chance to get wisdom...knowledge.
    That being said, we all know what the 7th day is as Yah said to rest and worship him on that day. so there should not be no debate about When to worship the most high. Sunday is the beginning of the week so that's 1 and keep on counting to get to the 7th day. That ends up being Saturday. I know you went to school and there should be no reason to act like you don't know. It's better to follow the most high then men's way.

I woke up this morning

I woke up this morning wondering when I'm going to get back where I came from. I know it's going to be a little while but I hope he comes back with vengeance he promised.  I try my best to stay true to him that I slip up and get angry that I try to do better. Following him people said it would be easy but it's really not. Letting go of thing you use to know every since you was small and change it after 28 years is pretty hard. I started last year on this walk so you do the math how old I am.. (okay I'm 29)
  I know you are think "What is the lady talk about. It's easy to follow the most high and Jesus (Can't remember how to spell his Hebrew name and I sure don't want to spell it wrong). Tell you the truth it is not. It's difficult as getting a thread through a small little needle.
  Yes we have been lied to as people. We have been brought to be a certain way. Program on how they want things to be and we will follow. No not me anymore. I sure don't want to burn or be ignore it anymore.

 The main point is read. I hope you see what I see as there is only a few that will be able to see it.

My feelings

I've been lonely for a very long time. Blinded by fear I finally see and finally understand something might not go the way I want it. I've been struggling to stay focus on what is important and I found myself slipping or just plan old sad.
  I don't know which step to take.
I don't know where to go.
 I don't know what to do.
I feel alone everyday but I have to remind myself I'm not. I pull myself out of bed hoping for a better day. Hoping he will come soon. I want peace and freedom.
 I understand things will have to happen before I am set free.
I hope I'm in that book of life.
That's the book that is not easy to get into. I even have to check my attitude everyday as I feel a certain way of guilt that I ask the most high to forgive me.
   With my slacking I have been trying to come back to the word some more. 

TO EVERY THING THERE IS A SEASON, AND A TIME TO EVERY PURPOSE UNDER THE HEAVEN. 

   ECCLESIASTES 3: 1

FollowYahLove: Some word for today

FollowYahLove: Some word for today:      I took a breath today. I finally said to myself " My life does matter but why?" I search so many years for the answer when ...

Some word for today

  

  I took a breath today. I finally said to myself " My life does matter but why?" I search so many years for the answer when I was young and never seem to find it but it found me.  I dislike I have wasted times over the years. I could have been on a different path or even help someone in another way. I could have avoided heart ache and pain. But all that is the past and now is the now and the future is the future.
  
   Her is some wisdom


The root of wisdom is to fear the Lord, and the branches thereof are long life.

  KJV Apocrypha Ecclesiasticus  1:20